Howling at the moon: The upside of insomia

'twas the night before tuesday and all thru house not creature was stirring..not even a mouse.

It was a well-known fact among most people who know me that I despite of my very stubborn insomnia, am not a user of any kind of sleeping pills.

Here's why:
My latest thing that I discovered about three weeks ago is, around 2 am (ish) make myself a cup of tea, put on my jacket head downstairs out to the backyard kind of thing we got going on here, put my headphones on and just enjoy the moon for about 30-40 minutes. It's very very relaxing and even though when I come inside again I more often than not still can't sleep,I feel less stressed and over all quite happy.

Had I been a popper of sleeping pills and passed out by midnight this wouldn't be possible.


So even though insomnia is a often a royal pain in the ass and really makes daytime activity hard like all annoyances it has it's upsides.

So if you haven't tried I strongly recommend you do...the moon thing I mean. Not the insomnia.


If you have a big wolf like dog to keep you company it makes it even better.






/Beard


Recomended listening:
Everlast - Love, War and The Ghost Of Whitey Ford

Musings of a guy in a canon.

Very much like my real (whatever the word "real" means in this context)life my updates here tend to be very scattered.
In a way that defeats the purpose of the blog since per defintion this kind of thing is supposed some sort of continous narative about whatever the writer feels the blog is about.

I don't really feel the need to update this every week or even every month unless I have something I think is worth saying.

That is not in any way a jab at friends or other people who write about their day to day lives at all.

I just don't think anything I do on a daily basis is very intreresting to anyone myself excluded.

Anyway, that is not really my point tonight.

I recentlly (like 5 minutes ago) stumbled onto the word "chaos" on a friends blog.

That word often has a fairly negative charge to it. I disagree.
In certain cases I would love to have more structure in what I do besides my wednesday thing in my life.
For the most part I love things the way they are. Comeplete chaos with just a little bit of structure poking around at the edges.
The feeling of not really knowing what one is going to be next night or even in a few hours is very liberating. The closest comparison I can think of is being the guy sitting the canon just waiting for it go off.
All he knows is that it will at some point go off. Beyond that it's a mystery.
I have my students, Gula Villan and Spike. Those are my three constants that keep me at least moderately sane.

This of course makes long term planning non existant but that is a draw back I'm willing to live with.
I will at some point get tired of this but for now I am very happy being the guy in the canon.


/Beard